I am like a zoombie after work. I just want to sleeeeeeep everytime I get home. However I have obligations. I do them. When I am home alone with the kid I cannot fall asleep. However when the kid goes to bed, I fall asleep on the sofa. The temp job is really killing me. I have just put into the calender that I am free during this month. I wont put down I can work in March. I think this job is making me too tired.
Also the organisation I have been involved in for many years want me to help them with some stuff. I cannot right now, I have no energy at home. I am to tired, I am not having any life quality.
The job itself is very noisy and the environments and people are different everyday. It is very difficult to be alert all the time with new people. If I just met the same people it would perhaps be different. I have done this job before, but usually I had the opportunity to be located at one place all the time before. Now I am like running around all over the city. That is stressful. Stress makes me tired. I also have gotten my back pain back, which makes me stiff and not being able to fully move. My feet however are just fine, ever since I got my costume made cushions for my shoes.
However. I need one job, at one place. My brain is not equipped to meet this much people each week. I who do not even like people that much… imagine that. What a strain on my personality.
People might even think I am all outgoing, but that is just an illusion. I do not hang out with collegues after work, I do not go out to parties, I do not associate with new people after work other than attending some class or event. And at those classes or events I do not associate with people. I like to observe instead. Look at people. I prefer to hang out with people I know. So when you meet a talkative person in the future – they might not be social at all. I get all socializing by talking to people and then later on I have no need to talk or hang out, like others that perhaps do not talk do. I like my own company.
