The cold is terrible, making me cough, snot and sneeze. I feel like a slime-machine. Finally the cortisone, cough medicine and snot medicine wasn’t good enough. Tonight I was coughing and coughing. I am currently not enjoying the fact that my partner and kid is coming home today. I wish they would stay away. I am sick and I don’t want them to get sick. And the risk is very high they will. This cold is terrible. And the last thing I need is to take care of someone else. I want to be alone. If I was rich we would have a small apartment in town where one could go to be away from the family. Tonight was a bad night. I felt like I was getting breathless every time I coughed. Finally I took the cortisone tablets. I could then after 1 hour fall to sleep. When I finally woke up, almost at mid day I felt heavy. Like the body was too heavy to carry around. I have now eaten breakfast. I feel much better when eating cortisone. That is the effect of it, it is somewhat an artificial “feeling better”. However it makes life easier and all the risks are worth feeling better when you feel like shit in you lungs. I am thinking I do not want to neither leave or fetch the kid from kindergarten this week. I risk infecting all the kids… and then this cold would go around and around and around. I do not want the kid at home at all if I could choose… I want to get well first and foremost.
